I debated writing this post. I really did. What good does putting out a post like this do? Honestly, I’m not sure, but I thought it might help others who are experiencing similar feelings. #AloneTogether. God, I hate that hashtag.
I am sad. I am bummed. I am losing steam. I am not myself. There you have it.
I miss wearing makeup, getting dressed up to leave my house, meeting friends for dinner, and making a fool of myself out with friends. Most importantly, I miss having options. The option to stay inside even, I just miss having choices!
What’s provided me with comfort is knowing I’m not alone with these emotions. We’re all struggling one way or the other. I’m curious as to why we aren’t talking about mental health more. Personally, this is really taking a toll.
Anyways, quarantine has been a really challenging time. Talk about inconvenient. My heart goes out to all the Seniors who never got their last semester. My colleagues that are without a job or income. My friends graduating college and entering a desolate job market. Elderly and immune-compromised individuals who fear leaving their home. Healthcare professionals who are working themselves literally to death. Politicians fretting over life-altering, unprecedented, difficult decisions.
However, I am persistent about staying hopeful. Ohio’s stay-at-home order is going to be lifted this coming Friday, May 1. Will I return to work the week after? Probably not, but I am still hoping for the best. I am hopeful that the weather is going to continue to warm up, and the days are going to get longer. The sun will rise earlier, set later, and the days will feel lengthier.
For the first time in my life I have actually been wishing time away. What a waste! March 2020 felt like the longest month of my life, and April hasn’t been a whole lot better. May 1st is a big deal, and I can’t wait to get there.
I cannot remember the last time I’ve had so little to look forward to. I mean how fortunate am I! To have such a packed, busy, and occupied life with so many people to enjoy it with. I have a feeling that once things to start to pick back up, we are all going to get more creative with how we gather and celebrate. I may or may not have a few exciting *themes* up my sleeves.
I mean seriously, when was the last time things ever slowed down? Since I’ve been in college, life has seemed to get crazier and crazier. More appointments to run to, decisions to make, people to connect with, and obstacles to tackle. Go, go, go, go! Now we are stopped, paused, and on hold.
I am truly fantasizing about day drinking with my friends, browsing antique malls, and enjoying a nice dinner. My bucket list is growing, and I’m never taking the weekend for granted again. Sundays are the new Saturdays…that’s all I’ve got to say!
Please keep your hopes up, and do what you need to do. Stay hopeful, stay positive, and keep your loved ones close.